Tuesday, April 28, 2009

grieving

grieving isn't something i've really learned how to do. my grandpa died on january 24, and i still am not sure how to let myself feel the loss of such an important man in my life.  grieving wasn't something we did in my family, and i find it difficult to give myself the grace and freedom to let down and let myself be sad with God. anger i can do...i can easily be angry about things that make me sad, but are so painful that i can't be sad...so i stay angry. im trying to move away from that but it's very confusing. definitely one of those isaiah 42:16 kinda walks...i hope to get the hang of it sooner rather than later...

oh - and i didn't paint the really cool painting above

2 comments:

Rod Hugen said...

Layne, anger is a necessary part of every grieving process. Death is the enemy, after all, and we should rage against it. Even when we turn that rage against God, he forgives us and loves us anyway. I pray that God in his mercy will allow the sweet memories of your grandpa to wash over you and that you will be able to mourn and grieve and be sad and get a taste of Jesus' deep love for the brokenhearted.

Layne Julia said...

thanks so much Rod. I really appreciate your support, prayer and guidance. It is a huge blessing to me. I hope for those things as well :)

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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

grieving

grieving isn't something i've really learned how to do. my grandpa died on january 24, and i still am not sure how to let myself feel the loss of such an important man in my life.  grieving wasn't something we did in my family, and i find it difficult to give myself the grace and freedom to let down and let myself be sad with God. anger i can do...i can easily be angry about things that make me sad, but are so painful that i can't be sad...so i stay angry. im trying to move away from that but it's very confusing. definitely one of those isaiah 42:16 kinda walks...i hope to get the hang of it sooner rather than later...

oh - and i didn't paint the really cool painting above

2 comments:

Rod Hugen said...

Layne, anger is a necessary part of every grieving process. Death is the enemy, after all, and we should rage against it. Even when we turn that rage against God, he forgives us and loves us anyway. I pray that God in his mercy will allow the sweet memories of your grandpa to wash over you and that you will be able to mourn and grieve and be sad and get a taste of Jesus' deep love for the brokenhearted.

Layne Julia said...

thanks so much Rod. I really appreciate your support, prayer and guidance. It is a huge blessing to me. I hope for those things as well :)